Saturday, September 21, 2013

The internet is dead...

at my house. Hence, me sitting typing in a Starbucks.  And I just realized I"ve spent the entire day without my glasses or contacts on(and don't have them with me now) Whoo.....

How's life? My current situation is pretty symbolic of my life right now, unfortunately.  After I had probably the most amazing summer of my life, the school year kinda crashed down on me.

So I'm a senior in high school! Only two semesters(really, one) left....I started this blog in 8th grade Surreal, huh? Unfortunately I haven't had a lot of time to reflect what on school, college apps, gold award, school....

School has been more challenging and with a larger workload than ever before. It's mostly my fault, what with my ridiculous overachiever schedule. I have five AP classes, and my teachers, though good, are prettyyyy hard graders.

Here are my impressions of each class:
AP Calc-My lowest grade. I screwed up the first big assignment, but got a perfect score on the last quiz and test, so hopefully after the next assignment I'll be back to an A. The teachers are awesome but really harsh graders.

AP Lit-Definitely my hardest lit class so far. The teacher is an INCREDIBLY difficult grader. Usually I can get near perfect scores on my essays without trying, but in this class she really forces us to dig deep looking for insight. Good for learning, but annoying when even my meticulously-edited essays get mediocre scores...

AP Physics-My highest grade. Concepts are all new but a lot of fun to learn!

AP Stats-A joke :3. A joke with way too much tying into the calculator for my taste.

AP Gov-My least favorite class.......... I thought I would find Gov interesting, but NOP. Politics are definitely not my thing.

In addition, I've been taking a Voice and Diction class to fulfill a requirement at the local community college. Which is fun and interesting, but time consuming.

Subject tests....MathIIC and Chem again, in two weeks. I took practice tests today and while my scores improved, they aren't quite there yet.

College apps: pretty good, most of my drafts done, but not near the quality I want yet. Focusing on tests first.

My life has conspired so that I am ALSO going through personal struggles that I was expecting to face but not now. Not when I'm busy with so many other things. It's something that's been affecting me pretty personally and that I don't currently feel comfortable posting specifics. I feel like God has been testing me and I have been failing. There is a relationship which I enjoy but I don't feel is honoring to God and I've been fighting myself and it's really distracting and frustrating. I may be coming to peace/resolution regarding it soon and I have to say that God has been pretty awesome through it all, always being there for me despite my temporarily possibly abandoning him.

Please pray for me! Staying afloat right now, but I guess this is the obligatory senior year crush.


  1. Good luck with your classes and college applications! I'll be praying for you :)

    Here's a verse that I always go back to when I'm stressed about school and work...
    "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." ~John 14:27

  2. wow busy girl hang in there this all will make you stronger. you are amazing remember that and keep your head high you are in my prayers God bless

  3. Will pray! Hope things get better soon, and good luck with all your schoolwork!

  4. hey stranger i miss you so much i hope everything is okay *hugs*
    I've been feeling the same way about life lately, it's not a fun feeling at all. I'm praying for you!!! We need to talk soon and get caught up!!! <3


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