Monday, May 30, 2011

not unfortunately a dramatic picture post.

People have been posting uber inspiring picture posts lately. Unfortunately I cannot get around to finding awesome pictures. So content yourselves with my melodramatic typing. It's straight from my heart, so pardon the scatterbrainedness.

Who am I? (augh augh if I had an inspiring picture I would totally post it here.)

Teenagedom is supposed to be the age you find out who you are. And I just realized I seriously need to know. When you're young I think your identity comes more from the people and influences around you than from yourself. But in the teenage years all that is stripped away, and you have to come to grips with yourself.

I realized this after I realized: "HEY! I have no friends."
It's not that I can't get along with people. I naturally get along very well with people and can engage in conversation with almost anyone. But I feel like I can't identify with people. Then I realized that I couldn't identify with people because I had no idea who to identify with.

I can't identify with the girly girls and the tomboys, since I am neither. But how, seriously, would I identify myself, Amaranthine?

Nerd? I'm not a nerd, sorry. I like nerdy things, but I'm not defined by them. I realized that things like Star Wars and Artemis Fowl(despite the previous post) actually aren't that big in my life.

Bookworm? I love books, but I love everything else too.

Dancer? Asian? Writer? Pianist? These things are what I like to do, but do they contribute to identity? If someone asked me to describe myself in a few words, those wouldn't come to mind at all.

The older girls I know seem so secure that I just want to be like them. They know who they are, what they want, everything. They have enough confidence in themselves to level mountains. It's okay if some people don't like them or they fail at something. Their confidence and security is like a shield, one which I can't say I have at all.

What about "Amaranthine?" What about this persona I've projected onto myself?

"Amaranthine" is so secure and confident and flippant(at least, that's how I hope I come off as.) She's scatterbrained and melodramatic, but she's confident in her scatterbrainedness and melodramaticocity.(Are those words?)

I am:
A daughter of God. That will never change. That's the one thing I'm secure in.

I love:

The ocean
Being outdoors
Being on the computer
Just being out of the shower

Everything else under the sun.

But who am I really?
I want friends who love me for who I am. But who is that?

PS. I've promised a lot of posts, but I can't do them right now. I'm sorry.

Add "failed blogger" to my identity.

PPS. This post was more scatterbrained then I would like. (facepalm)




There you go.
I haven't posted in a week, and now my post is devoted exclusively to fangirling.
But seriously.

You need to read/listen to this series on audiobook. The audiobooks are free if you listen on youtube. And this is one of my favorite series for audiobooks, since the audiobook reader does a killer Irish accent.

I just got back from camping, and we listened to Artemis Fowl for five hours on the way back. BEST CAR RIDE EVER. No, seriously, my family loved it, and laughed a lot. Even my mom! Which was awesome.

<3 I love Artemis Fowl words cannot describe!
{inner me: "Add it to the list" (sigh)}

List of Obssessions In Order of Importance(or LOINI)
1. Star Wars
2.Artemis Fowl <3 <3 <3
3. Percy Jackson(it was close)
4. Septimus Heap(sorry sep. your books aren't that well written. and they are about the worst books to have on audiobook.).

My favorite character is Artemis. Really weird how the author can make a character so evilly evil and yet so cool and funny and awesome. For a close second: Juliet/Foaly/Root/Holly/Everyone except the bad guys.

<3 NO seriously they are awesome.

There is your fangirl post for today.

PS. I've been catching up on blog posts. Abby your writer meme was killer. I was laughing so hard! Qui I love your homeschooling post but your screwed layout messes with things. get it fixed soon ;) Paige: sorry I cannot participate. :(

PPS. :D If you do not check out Artemis Fowl I will cry.

PPPS. My current wallpaper:
(right click, "view image" for full)

PPPPS. Camping was good. thanks for asking!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

I feel old.

I feel so old and outdated in the blogging world. Honestly, I've been doing this for over a year. I guess I'm just not one of those genius bloggers that gets tons of followers really fast and gets famous. I'm just normal.

Sometimes I feel like the whole world has forgotten about me....but it's my fault for not  posting. My blog is in a state of limbo. I'm not dead! Not yet, anyway.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Let me rephrase that..

You can consider me dead(or at least comatose)from the blogging world until school is over. I've been reading all your posts and I love most of them, but I have too many to read to leave comments. I DO read your posts though! Honestly!

I'm going to post about girl scout GAM later, and there will be videos! With me talking in it! (I hate my voice).

Now I'm going to do a writer meme from dear Mariella.

I was tagged in a writing meme and I’ve never done one of these before, so I’m excited about it. They’re good questions and I’m excited to see what answers I come up with for them. Here goes!

If you could go back in time and relive one moment, what would it be?
How long is this moment?  I would relive last Saturday because it was a lot of fun. ;) and maybe the day Leia started The Lakehouse,
If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
This is almost the same thing as the first question, but I would learn to keep my mouth shut earlier and be less blunt to people.

What movie/TV character do you most resemble in personality?
Hmm...most movie characters that I like are heroic. When I took the Star Wars personality test I was Lando Calrissian..but that's definitely NOT my answer for this test. I resemble Bianca from Percy Jackson, because I'm always worrying and wet-blanketing my little brother's fun.

If you could push one person off a cliff and get away with it, who would it be?
Natasi Daala, because she's really screwing up this book series I'm reading.

Name one habit you want to change in yourself.
I talk too much, always say the wrong thing, have a bad temper, and get impatient. I also get way too attached to people.

Describe yourself in one word.

Describe the person who named you in this meme in one word.
A dreamer. That's what she SAID she was, anyway.
Why do you blog? Answer in one sentence.
Because of awesome people and awesome blogs and it's a lot of fun and a good way to keep a record of the world.

Post later!
PS. Welcome my four new followers! Who joined while I didn't post anything...well, then. ;)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Happy bday to me+my May schedule+survey question

Sorry I've been gone.(I'll explain that later.) I'm sure you all missed me though! Uh huh uh huh.

Today I'm going shopping with my mom..and then to my dance studio XD. Ooh ooh I got a lot of money and a bracelet.

<3 to Jedi Chick, being the only one to send me birthday greetings via email, and Ahsoka2898, being the only one to PM me about it. <3 (Not if you count my dentist AND orthodontist. They sent me ecards too. Nice.)

How old am I turning?
If you believe the Lakehouse, today I am 100.

 So I have something important to tell you. During the month of May/early June, I will be having a new posting schedule. Which is:
I can only post on weekends. WAH WAH WAH

Last week, I had the notion(planted, reinforced, and enforced by Mom) that i needed to spend more time on schoolwork. I think I said something like "Pssh." which only made her more certain.

Don't worry! It's only till school ends. My God's Princess posts will have to be put off till then, because I wanted to post them in close proximity of each other.

I was like "Mom! That's blog suicide! I have an online reputation to keep, you know!"
Luckily it's only for a month or else I would die. Like, seriously, die.

I'll be posting later! I won't be posting after today until the weekend so I will  seriously take advantage of this blogging opportunity.

(not to be spreading my notion to other people, cough Jedi~Chick.)

Here's a survey question;

What part of yourself do you wish you could change? (external and internal)

I'd like to be tall, muscular, and have red hair please.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Photo contest

It's the last day to enter (life is to short to) not wear red shoe's photo contest.

So here are my entries!
I'm a pretty amateur photographer so idk what you all think about them. XD

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Part 1(may the fourth be with you.)

Part 1

Favorite Pirate
This one.

Favorite Political Entity:
I'm not sure if this means a politician or a government system. My favorite government SYSTEM  is the New Republic:

And my favorite politician is Mon Mothma:

My favorite creature:

Nexus w00t.

My favorite movie:

I’m going to go with the critics and say ESB.

Favorite movie character:
How can you not love this guy? If the picture does not make you swoon, you are heartless. sorry.

Favorite EU character:
Yes! hah! EU FTW!!!!
Jaina Solo forever! and ever! and ever! and ever! and ever!

I should put a male character too, so....

heck yeah Kyp Durron.

Favorite Weapon:
I’m on a sugar rush right now...
The names are wrong but oh well.

Favorite non-human race/species.
Chiss, because being uberawesome fighters with no sense of humor is cool.

Most memorable death:
This guy, because I remember being all “????? AH AH AH WATTHEHECK THEY KILLED ANAKIN!!!!!!!!!AHHHH!”

Favorite EU novel:
This is going to be a tough one....uh......uh...I’ve read practically all of them XD
It’s a tie between this one:
This one was so funny...and sad...and awesome.

They’re both by the same author...that’s sad. XD But this one was kind of a giveaway. It was Sacrifice, with Mara on the cover. Who do you think is gonna die?
Actually, I’m going to call a three way tie. And this one’s NOT by Karen Traviss XD.
This was the first EU “grown up” book I read. <3 It’s full of Jaina/Jag <3 <3 <3

Will post more later. :)

May the Fourth be with you!( my second National Star Wars Day on this blog). Star Wars Day part 1


So in honor of National Star Wars day, I will first post my favorite Star Wars moments in pictures.

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments


Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments

Star Wars: Top 20 Moments