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I was never a popular kid growing up. I wasn't mean or annoying(I think) but it seemed like no one wanted to be my friend. 

I was the weird one, the strange homeschooled freak who didn't watch TV and didn't know who Miley Cyrus was until she was twelve. I didn't brush my hair, wore glasses and braces, and wore whatever my mom bought me and I picked up off my closet floor. My idea of a good time was reading or digging holes outside.  I knew how to identify rocks and birds just by looking at them, but somehow that didn't impress the other kids when I didn't know what a Youtube was. I had a strange sense of humor and laughed at things no one else found funny.

I never thought it was my problem that no one wanted to be my friend. I had really high self esteem. If they didn't want to be my friend, they must have been like those snobs I read about in my chapter books!

But then I realized they were friendly to everyone else, not just me. I had a few special friends, but I think I weirded them out..I was the typical unsocialized homeschooler.

I tried to make them like me. I tried to talk to them, and be friends with them. They didn't not like me. They didn't avoid me, they just ignored me.  They talked to me when they had to, like when they had a question or when they needed me to pass them something. But not in a friendly context.

There are some people who you're never going to be friends with, no matter how hard you try. 

It's not because their fault or yours, but some people just don't click.

Jesus doesn't call us to be friends with everyone, but he calls us to be at peace with everyone.  Politely and neutral. If you asked them about Amaranthine now, they would say that I was a little weird, but I never said anything mean, cut in front of them in line, cuss, or put them down.

That's enough for me.


  1. Aw :( I'm not that popular either, so you're not alone lol.

    I left you an award on my blog :)

  2. Yea, I know how you feel. I was frump/goth girl for like 2 years and no one liked me. xD
    Sad that I was goth girl at 11-12. But i was kinda scary

  3. Great post Amaranthine, you're right about Jesus wanting us to be at peace with everyone, even if we're not friends with everyone.

    P.S. I like your new blog design, it's very nice.

    -Barriss :-D

  4. I was weird when I was 11-12 years old. Now I just feel like some of the kids ignore me because I don't play sports. -_-

    -Leia <3

  5. I can see Savannah being scary. :P I love you!

    I was the popular girl at church. I was friends with everyone. Then middle school started and I was left behind. I'm actually glad for that now because: 1. It I had all those "friends" at church still I probably wouldn't have the amazing friends that I have now and 2. I wouldn't know what my best friend goes through a lot to be able to comfort her.

    It's still sad being unpopular, though, sometimes. I miss it, sometimes.

  6. I was never "popular" I had friends, but unlike other kids at my Private School, I had values and didn't care about things like clothes and boys and I actually liked to read and do schoolwork. When I started homeschooling, I found my BEST friends, some of whom are over the internet. ;) I never did care about popularity, but I know I was nice to everyone, because I have now, and had then, God in my heart.
    Leia, It's ok, I don't like sports either, and my best friend is an athlete!!
    Savannah, I think my cousin is going through a goth stage right now. She's constantly thinking and writing and talking, about death, and blood and gore. We were at the library and she picked out a bunch of books on Black Death and The Plague. I hope it's just a phase!!!! (BTW, she's 12-13 age range)


    MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!! <33333


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